Have you ever felt a little bit lost, like you don’t know what to do next? Have you felt like everybody else has figured it out and knows exactly what to do? Have you ever felt like everyone else is super motivated and inspired, and you’re just not? The worst part about it is you feel like you’re wasting time and will miss out on something if you don’t figure it out really soon. I’m dealing with something that I’m not sure what it is, but I’ve been feeling a bit off.
Feeling ‘off’ started back when the pandemic began, but I was expecting that I was going to start to feel super pumped up and inspired when it was over. I have been scared, to be honest. I feel stuck like I don’t know what my goal is any more or what I really want out of life or the big picture. I’ve never wanted to be successful, drive a nice car, or live in a nice house. That was never on my radar. What has been on my radar is just to feel like I mattered. I think I feel this because of the issues I dealt with when I was younger.
When I was younger, I felt insignificant and less than people. One of the main reasons why I work as hard as I do currently is to prove to other people that I’m as valuable as they are. Growing up, I didn’t feel that way for most of my life. I have struggled and struggled financially. And when I found YouTube, everything in my life changed for the better because I felt like I mattered for the first time in my life. I felt like people were interested in what I had to say. More than anything, it changed how I was fundamentally because it made me realize that I needed to be a better person to give advice.
Being a hypocrite?
I’ve never wanted to be a hypocrite, which is one reason I want to do this video. I want to come clean because I haven’t been talking about some issues that I’ve been dealing with. I’ve focused on giving super positive, upbeat, and energetic content. But there’s also this other part. I’ve been struggling, and I’m not okay. I need to work through this, which is part of my healing process. I need to figure out the next step, but I’ll be okay because I know from experience that if you keep trying and moving in the right direction, you will get to a better place. I use therapy to deal with my issues and get myself past some of my struggles. If you’re in a position where you feel like you could benefit from some professional help or just somebody to talk with, check out BetterHelp. Get 10% off of your 1st month of therapy with BetterHelp! Get matched with a therapist who will listen and help.
I’ve been thinking about and contemplating all sorts of things, coupled with two of my friends having cancer. Finding out my buddy Jeff has brain cancer has been devastating news. My business partner Stephen has been battling cancer for the last 9 years, and recently something was found on his kidney. I’ve also been dealing with my mother-in-law. About 4 years ago, my wife and I moved her down to Atlanta from Asheville. She has been struggling with dementia, and it’s been absolutely heartbreaking. She’s been going downhill, and it’s gotten worse. Because of this situation, my wife and I haven’t taken any time as a couple to go on vacations.
I know I’m not alone
I have been wrestling with a lot on my plate, and I needed to get it off my chest because I know I’m not alone. I know I’m not the only person that is struggling right now. Social media paints an unrealistic expectation where you see everyone killing it. And that’s not what my reality looks like. But, regardless, you should keep trying and striving to figure out what your next direction should be. Don’t get discouraged or overwhelmed. The only way you fail is if you stop trying. You are amazing, you’re my inspiration, and you’re one of my best friends! I’m hoping this video helps some of you realize that you’re not alone. Do not give up. Keep moving forward!